hihiiii it’s kaylee—this video is basically my first lil journal entry on youtube, and yes… i’m 20 and i’ve never kissed anyone. i talk about why that used to make me feel super insecure, and how moving abroad + meeting all kinds of people made me realise it’s way more common than we think. i also rant a bit about how social media makes relationships look so linear and perfect, when in real life it’s literally not like that at all. i unpack the main reasons i think i avoided dating for so long: low self-esteem growing up, being painfully shy/introverted, being scared of judgement (and drama), and honestly having a fear of intimacy (fight or flight when someone likes me… te). i also share how hearing other people’s trauma stories and watching friends get hurt made me overthink every single encounter, plus my biggest ick: friends who get into relationships and forget their friends. but where i’m at now is very self-growth era. being single has helped me become my own best friend, build confidence through passions, and stop chasing people who don’t reciprocate. my biggest takeaway: i don’t chase, i attract—stop trying to prove your value to someone who doesn’t see it, and trust that the universe will place the right person in front of you when it’s time.