I'm leaving shame and rumination behind in 2026. | Weekly Yap 1/52

I've been carrying shame and ruminating about the past for 3 years, and I'm finally ready to leave it behind. In this first Weekly Yap, I talk about: - Why I've been stuck in a shame spiral since burning down my course business - The rumination cycle that kept killing my momentum in 2025 - How I realized I've been competing with the wrong people - The pattern I've had my whole life of quitting right when things get hard - What God might be trying to teach me in this season - Why I'm done being the "Mariah Carey of YouTube" - My commitment to adjusting instead of burning everything down This is unscripted, messy, and honest - exactly what I need this channel to be in 2026. See you next week for Weekly Yap 2/52. ♡ What's in this video: 0:00 New Year Content Pressure 8:51 Starting a Weekly Video Diary 14:47 Rumination & Letting Go of the Past 23:42 Why Playing in Extremes Isn't Serving Me 33:11 Being Unable to Step Into Who I Want To Be 🧋Check out my Superfood Milk Tea business: https://www.instagram.com/getsuperboba/ ♡ My YouTube Equipment: Camera (Sony) ➡︎ https://geni.us/IE6Jp Camera Lens (Ultra Wide) ➡︎ https://geni.us/yoUwyf Microphone ➡︎ https://geni.us/4C606 Tripod ➡︎ https://geni.us/waoPFB Lighting ➡︎ https://geni.us/gWkHG Lantern Softbox ➡︎ https://geni.us/MAAmAz Lighting Stand ➡︎ https://geni.us/APrj Dummy Battery ➡︎ https://geni.us/nM2tiqm Bluetooth Remote ➡︎ https://geni.us/7DHX SD Card ➡︎ https://geni.us/1AQ2Wlb Vlog Camera (DJI) ➡︎ https://geni.us/mebO0 Vlog SD Card ➡︎ https://geni.us/RlKvM ♡ ALL VLOGGING EQUIPMENT: https://kit.co/vanessalau.co/vlogging-gear Vlogging Camera: https://geni.us/mebO0 Vlogging Camera Cage: https://geni.us/wAYsAj Vlogging Camera Stand: https://geni.us/sj1M1d Magic Arm / Small Rig: https://geni.us/3rsfd6K Sticky Adhesive: https://geni.us/KIlxO9z Wrist Strap: https://geni.us/RuafNa Vlogging Glasses: https://geni.us/Ap82F Check out ALL my equipment here: https://kit.co/vanessalau.co ♡ Products: 📷 Shop all my YouTube gear: https://kit.co/vanessalau.co 🤳 Shop all my vlog gear: https://kit.co/vanessalau.co/vlogging-gear 👚 Shop all my clothes & lifestyle: https://www.shopltk.com/explore/vanessalau ♡ YouTube Optimization Tools I Use: https://www.tubebuddy.com/vanessalauco Use “vanessasbuddy” to get 20% off all licenses ♡ My favourite editing tool: https://get.descript.com/ep1auu5yjxh4 ♡ My favourite DM automation tool: Manychat (use this link for 30% off your first 3 months!): https://manychat.partnerlinks.io/c7ie3goy7ntn ♡ Stay Connected: ♥️ Subscribe to my channel for more: https://www.youtube.com/vanessalau?sub_confirmation=1 💛 Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/vanessalau.co/ 🧋Check out my Superfood Milk Tea business: https://www.instagram.com/getsuperboba/ 💌 For business inquiries: partnerships@vanessalau.co