In this very chatty, realistic mom vlog, I’m sharing a real update on my postpartum depression and postpartum rage—because I didn’t fully realize how bad it had gotten until I hit a breaking point. After a terrible morning where I truly felt like I was going to lose my mind, I finally called my OB office. I was honestly expecting a whole long process, but within about five minutes I had a Zoloft prescription and was given a therapist number to call next. I also talk about the side effects I felt right away (dizzy and super nauseous), and what I’m doing to keep taking steps toward feeling like myself again. I also bring you along for our normal SAHM life with two girls—walk attempts in chaotic weather, snack time, toddler moments, and baby meals. I make homemade cinnamon applesauce with my baby food maker and fill reusable pouches, then I prep a colorful baby dinner and share a new electrolyte drink I’ve been liking because it’s not as salty. And I’m being so honest when I say: one full day in, I noticed a difference. I felt calmer, less reactive, and like I could actually enjoy being a mom again—still real moments, just not as intense.