Hey guys—it’s been a while, and this one was honestly hard for me to even hit record on. In this video I talk about why 2025 was the toughest year of my life, and I start with some backstory about how death has been a constant around me since I was a kid. For the last 15–20 years, it’s been normal for me to lose 10 to 20 people a year, and in 2025 the count was around 12 or 13. What made this year feel so heavy is how personal and connected a lot of those losses were—people I dated, people connected to my family, and just a lot of important people in my life. The hardest loss was my father. He passed away the day before Thanksgiving, and even with everything I’ve been through, nothing prepares you for losing a parent. I share the promises I made to him—getting him home instead of letting him pass in a hospital, and making sure he wasn’t alone. I held his hand for three and a half days, and with my niece at the end, we stayed with him until his last breath. I’m also explaining why I’ve been absent: I moved into my parents’ home in May 2024 to care for them, especially my dad. On a more positive note, I’m trying to get back to creating—reactions, travel, food, photography, paranormal—and I point you to the other channels where that content is going to live moving forward.