Hi, I’m Crystall, and this is the first episode in my new “Life in My 30s” vlog format—where I’m being a lot more real about the ups and downs behind the cute travel clips. Shortly after my New York trip, I went through another miscarriage, and I’m still healing. I’m a positive person, but I’m also honest about the days where it “definitely rained,” and all I can do is shut down for a day, grab coffee, and try again tomorrow. In this vlog, I’m sharing what recovery has looked like for me—mentally and physically—and how my 30s have forced me to get serious about boundaries. I talk about cutting off toxic friendships, choosing to invest my energy into people who genuinely show up for me, and realizing I used to spend way too much time pleasing the wrong people. You’ll also come with me through little healing moments: cooking at home (octopus ceviche + perilla oil noodles), catching up with friends, quick cabin resets, and a spontaneous Chicago trip that replenished my soul. My biggest takeaway: your energy is valuable, and it’s okay to cut out anything that keeps draining you—because you deserve the best and nothing less.