In this video, I’m basically just being really honest about what it looks like to do life while you’re going through it. November was a rough month for me, and I feel like it’s the perfect example of how things can look totally fine from the outside—like, I’m going to Disney and concerts and doing “fun” stuff—but I was still depressed. I wanted to vlog it anyway because I know I’m not the only one who’s ever felt that weird disconnect of “I should be happy” but I’m just… not. I take you with me through a few highlights—Disney, seeing Sabrina Carpenter, and also Pitbull—and then some random little life moments in between. But the bigger point is the reminder: your brain doesn’t care if your calendar looks exciting. If you’re struggling, you’re not dramatic and you’re not ungrateful, you’re just human. I also wanted this to be a little bit of hope, because even when it feels hopeless, it really can get better (and it won’t always feel like this).